Confession; straight from the chest

Spoiler warning: This is not a donation pledge or anything even closely related to money so ease yourself.

This type of stuff usually gets posted in my blog but this is SERIOUS, people! Before I begin to pen down any further, let me say something about myself. Who am I? I am the owner, administrator, web master, promoter, (think I should stop) of this very website you're a part of. I ran this website from a 10x7 feet room in excruciating 48-Celsius summers with no air conditioner and without a heater in freezing cold of the -2 Celsius winters. I gave it my life, gave it all I had in me, fed it by sacrificing my meals, administrated it by sitting 6 days and 7 nights without even going to sleep for once, looked after it when I was supposed to look after my stabbed hand. Thats who I am.

Now lets get down to business, we have something to talk about today.

Lately, things had been so gloomy for me that I started to think about burning this place down. Thoughts came in as I jumped into the ocean of depression; I should shut this website down without telling anyone – Maybe I should just go away and let the website die – No me = no o2 for the website – How about I just wipe off everything or maybe donate it to someone in need. For all this time, I have been constantly fighting myself for a cause unknown.

What wasn't an option: To sell this website. I will never consider it even if they offer me a million dollars.

And the climax takes a spin: The purpose of this website suddenly dawned on me today while I was wandering all over the world wide web. I was doing injustice to all the people on board. People like snaz, dsjeya, fairy, rahen (fatima sis), hina, xeon, manni9, zeeast, palwasha, majid, nina, villies, zaheer, ash, miss_sweet, aadi, quiet whisper, roshni, badboy rulzzzz, simi, nutter, mytonse, bluehacks, people like YOU! This place isn't popular or intriguing because of me, it's because of people like YOU! I never imagined life without the likes of you people out there until now and to tell you the truth, it haunts me every time I think about it. The posts, styles, forums, heck even descriptions of this place are quoted and ripped off at at least 6 out of 10 desi forums at the world wide web. Thats who we are, the people who inspire others to not only speak of change, but to welcome it with arms wide open. I am aware that things here have been a little rough and I take all the blame for that – I am sorry, I messed it all up for you people. Now let me make it up to you, I will breathe life right back into it and do everything the community wants me to do.

This place was never an experiment for me, it literally made me who I am today. My journey towards practical life started here as I forayed into the world outside. I met people who redefined the way I look upon at people, and I got hold of something for the first time in my life, something more worthy to me than worth itself; Yes, the life, as you and I know it.

I apologize for even thinking about doing it and I admit that it was great injustice to each and every single one of you. Today, I humbly request you to pardon me. Whatever those thoughts were, they are gone and as the myspace generation puts it, I am cool.

I now open the gates for everyone. This day onwards, we are not going to take any sides, we are not going to allow anyone to humiliate anyone at the board and of course, we are going to reactivate the banned accounts. PS: You might bump into a surprise this month because I have plans to shuffle the place a bit in an attempt to make it tidy.

To freedom,
Adeel.

I remember from an Administrator of a forum, "A community is never run by one person" He also said that forums wont stop if one person leaves. But when he left, the community did fall apart. Yes, members are important, they are the ingredients of any recipe but its an administrator (like you) who can put them together to get the perfect flavour. I wait to see the new (re-charged) DesiTwist Welcome home ..

Nicely said Aadi.

Glad to have you back in action Teddy. I look forward to seeing all that you will bring in our near future for DesiTwist.

I strongly agree to AaDi ..

Here is some text from a song i wud like to share Endurer..

"Life is a gamble boys, so u know dat u batter play ur cards rite, if u gona take a chance, then u know tht u better stand up and fight, this is just a game, so u gonna keep on playing cos u know wht i m saying, and u knw u might even win this tonite, so tell me can you handle this???"

hehe.. u getting ma drift Endurer??? I hope you know what i am tryin to say here...

Moreover, glad to see you spreading some positive energy around DesiTwist... keep doing that

Cheerz

Thank you Naila. Nahien, jaan aap sab log ho

Aadi thank you for coming down here to support me (yet again) and yes, it means a lot to me. You know sometimes thats all one needs to get up and going again. I made some mistakes that came back to teach me a lesson, one that will go a long way in my life.

Thank you Hina

Nina, I am not sure if I can comprehend or deciper what the lyrics have to say but thank you for sticking with the place after all that we've been through.

Allah tala aap ko khoob kamiyabi aata fermain. Aameen.
This place is like a home to me a virtual home, it helps me to be in touch with my Land, my culture, my people ...
Best of luck and ager hamare layakh koi khidmat ho tou zaroor bataiyega hum sub aapke saath hain