Anything that is in your control should be dealt within your terms. Having said that i do not mean that you will get what you want but at least you can look back and say: hey i took a stand at it and did my best. Anything that is beyond you control~ you should try to at least have you say in it and if does turn out that you have to follow someone else's orders, then you can say: i tried my best to change the situation. Bottom line: take initative to live life as per your desires...that's the best thing you can do -any positive approach is better than doing nothing and deliberating on what to do and what not to. The point here is to do something about it and keep making the effort.
Running away and giving up are
not an option and not practicle. You have to face it head on! It's your life and only you have the utmost control over it - (God is always superior and with u). Remember, there are people in the world that are in worse situations than you and i.
If worst comes to worst ~ Take it as a challenge and embrace it. Keep faith and
pray
I wish and pray for your best interest.