Eeh, the thrill of living is long gone and I am reeling at the very thought of having the exact same future as my deplorable past. What should I do? Take things the way they are thrown at me or throw everything back at them*? I opened my eyes to this world with huge responsibilities resting on my shoulders so I cannot play lame and be cool about it. At the same time, I do wish I had a life in which I could do things my way.

So, what should I do? hope? run away? give up?

*= them is a blanket term being used for people in my life who exercise a great deal of authority on me.